This morning I had my first conversation with my cousin Jackie; since I found her on Facebook on Thursday night. Just like I told you in "Just What I Needed," even though we're first cousins, I don't know Jackie at all. But as soon as we were on the phone together, we chatted like we were old friends. It was strange to speak about other family members and know that they were her relatives too. I had to stop myself from saying MY grandmother; and just say Nana instead, because MY grandmother was also Jackie's grandmother; even though Jackie didn't really now OUR grandmother. It was amazing to discuss other family members and know that they were people that we had in common, even though we barely knew them or each other.
Connecting with Jackie has already brought me, such unexpected happiness, and I think that I must have had a smile plastered on my face the entire time that we talked. There was something about her voice that was so kind, comforting and loving. And when she laughed, it sounded to me VERY much like my laugh; and she thought the same. We spoke for at least an hour and a half, and we discovered that we had many likenesses. Jackie asked me if my wedding bouquet was Sterling silver roses, and when I said yes; she told me that those were her favorite roses as well. We both have made and sold jewelry as a hobby, and her youngest daughter is an avid scrapbooker. Jackie told me that she loves to make things with her hands and do crafts; and I felt assured that we were cut from the same cloth. We revelled in our similarities and were comforted by our commonalities. We recognized that even though there had been years and miles between us; it's remarkable that we were so alike. We both told each other repeatedly, how thrilled we were to have found each other. And we concurred that we never had to long for family again; because now we have each other.
Jackie told me that her heart was now full; and I must say that this is EXACTLY how I feel. I am exuberant, I am delighted; and I feel loved. Jackie is the first person in my biological family who has shown any genuine concern for me in the past 20 years; and I feel blessed to have found her.