Monday, January 17, 2011
With that being said, I can tell you that I'm trying to put the incident behind me and forgive myself. I KNOW that no one is perfect. I KNOW that wallowing in my shame is not helpful or healthy; and I KNOW that I will do better next time; and there WILL be a next time, because I am nothing if not a fighter. A fighter in the sense that I will not give up. I will not be dissuaded, because for me; failure is not an option.
In the process of trying to work through my feelings about "the drama," as my kids refer to it; I looked up quotes about forgiveness; and I'd like to share some that I liked best, with you.
On Betterworld.net, I found "Anger makes you smaller, while forgiveness forces you to grow beyond what you were." -- Cherie Carter-Scott
"The only way children can learn the habit of forgiveness is by seeing us, their parents, forgive others and forgive ourselves." -- Naomi Drew
"Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could; some blunders and absurdities have crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; you shall begin it serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense." -- Ralph Waldo Emerson
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong." -- Mohandas K. Gandhi
"Forgiveness does not overlook the deed. It rises above it."
-- Pumla Gobodo-Madikizela
Such profound words. They have helped me to realize that if I can forgive others (which I am apt to do;) then I myself am deserving of my own forgiveness. I see that no one benefits from my extended lament and criticism of myself. Instead I have to approach each day ready to do better than the last. I need to remember what happened but not dwell on it and love myself regardless; because as RuPaul says, "If you don't love yourself, how in the hell you gonna love somebody else?"
I AM forgiven.
Till next time...
Queen of EVERYTHING