Throughout the course of "The Bumpy Ride," I've stated MANY times; that I want to become a professional writer. And when I wrote "The Rules," I said that I didn't want to write a book at this point in time; because it seemed like such an arduous task. So I ask you; what the heck was I thinking when I committed to writing a daily blog? Like THAT wasn't going to be rigorous? Don't get me wrong, I totally remember the reasons that I wanted to challenge myself to write daily. I imagined that it would be monumental to record my daily thoughts, since it could possibly be the last year of my life. I presumed that it might be compelling reading and at the very least; a keepsake for my children. But the truth of the matter is, that extraordinary things don't happen to me on a daily basis and I don't always have the most fascinating thoughts and opinions to share. Which leads me to fear that I am occasionally boring my readers; and that the people who previously liked reading my blog when I only posted a couple of times a week or less; will tire of me; and stop reading at all. Whew!!
At 89 days in; I'm questioning my ability to go on with this challenge. I feel like I'm floundering, and I second guess myself on a regular basis. (OK, not much new there.) I know that I can't please all of the people all of the time; but that's never stopped me from trying before. Certainly the positive feedback helps; but sometimes I just wonder if I'm wasting me time. OK, I'll admit it; I have PMS (yes, I know TMI; but the facts are the facts baby.)
Because I'm not a quitter; I'm going to try and keep on truckin. I'm going to endeavor to find new and interesting things to write about; and keep plugging away; because even if no one reads it; I know that it's important for me to do so. In the 89 days that I've been writing daily; I think I've made some terrific discoveries about myself; and I've tried as always to provide recommendations for the (say it with me;) "Greater Good;" and that's exactly what I set out to do. I suppose that all I can say is; on days when my post doesn't float your boat; PLEASE don't give up on me. Give me another chance; and let me know you're out there; because this really is a big (say it with me,) "HUGE;" undertaking. It was one thing for me to try and write a witty anecdote once a week; but trying to entertain, inform and inspire you on a daily basis; now that's a completely different animal.
Although they may not all have been the best posts that I've ever written, I'm proud of the work that I've done thus far; and I know that I shouldn't be so hard on myself; but hey, that's what I do. You know, it's kind of funny. I had originally planned to write only a blurb, and then post some links for some of my fave pick me up tunes; since I was feelin a lil down in the dumps; about "TBR." But now, after venting and writing as much as I have; I actually feel better. The tunes don't even feel necessary anymore; but I don't want to be a tease. SO, let's listen to a few; I'll brush myself off, and start all over again tomorrow.
Till next time...
Queen of EVERYTHING
Don't Bring Me Down - Electric Light Orchestra
Don't Do Me Like That - Tom Petty & The Heartbreakers
Heartbreak Beat - The Psychedelic Furs
Modern Love - David Bowie
Love Train - The O'Jays